心力交瘁

今天我給你call you back了。然後你又給我講家裏的矛盾史：張三要搶你的屋地了，李四要搶你的土地了，吳六要觊觎你那麽一點不多的錢了，某人當上了村裏的村長，我們家的低保錢即将不保了。。。

我花了一個小時給你講清楚：别人不敢搶我們家的土地，屋地，以及錢的。第一他們搶不了；第二，他們不敢搶，這個世道是公平的；第三，有些人是對你好的，但你卻誤以爲人家要搶你的東西。然後你又可憐兮兮地跟我說在家裏活不下去了因爲村裏很多人都想你死。接着你就提出要來廣州和我一起住。可是我現在還在讀書。我哪裏有精力和錢照顧你啊。另外還有一個原因是我怕你來廣州沒辦法适應這樣一個比家裏更complicated and cruel place,how can you make me let you be in guangzhou.although i knew you had hated our countryside so much, our home is our root. you left your youth ,your land and our relatives is in our hometown.

你又還沒吃飯吧，但是你罵人或者說诋毀别人的時候說話的聲音堪比炮聲。上周爲了你我請了半個星期的假跑回家給你講道理和了解爲什麽你會和親戚又吵起了架。你一貫被人欺負你的語氣，後來我才了解到原來是你跑到親戚家問人家有沒有耕你那些荒廢了幾百年的土地。親戚說沒有啊，不信你就去看看啦。然後你就罵别人生的兒子沒用，接着又把幾千年前的舊賬一起拿出來算。我苦口婆心地和你講道理。其實這些道理是自從爸爸走後，我一直在跟你講。可是真正聽進出的又有多少呢？曾經我都曾一度想跑去北京讀書以逃脫你的唠叨和煩躁。

at the evening, you call me again and this time, you complained to me that your destiny is ruining by your mom, and said that youare so young to marry my dad who had no money and older you about 10years. but my dad had passed away for more than 10years ,you said these again,did that make sense?i am so worn and i didn't want to persuade you anymore. i just wanted to jump from the teaching building. i can't keep thingking that whether i will commit suiside for you.i thought it will be a 50 percent things to happen.